God did I miss this blog

God do I need this - the world of nature, when read through peer review articles and cloaked in the language of dog shit is horrible horrible horrible. It's almost like studying the field of art, but only in your spare time, when leisure permits, can you actually see a picasso, a "gogain", a da vinci, the rest of the time you must read art manuals and never know what it means to 'feel' the mysterious, to 'see beauty', to taste, touch, and feel excitement - what you get is the feeling someone is writing something because they are getting paid - worthy of hellfire motives - 'we all know this, so why complain, hasn't it always been thus and thus ever remain?'